I'm in an ongoing stage where I go about the day, I'm happy, I find joy in all the things I get to do, I take pleasure in food, in earth connections, animals, Martyn, silly TV shows...and then I have this one single second - I remember - and it is like being smashed into a glass door and it hurts so intensely - but only for a second - and then I move my foot, then the other foot and I am walking and I see a flower or a horse and I remember I am here.

I call these Aftershocks.