I've been thinking about why, even though I am spiritual and believe energy and love never die, then why do we grieve?
I am human. I am not spirit. I am spirit in a human body.
So the past weeks the thought that comes to me is I can not share with her as a human being anymore. Every little thing - mundane or exciting - things I would normally pick up the phone and share with her, I can't. It's sad.
I am still enjoying those things though. But I can't share them and have her reaction.
And of course I share them in other ways, with Martyn, friends. But it was fun sharing with her.