I feel much relief to be out of her place really, and realize now how anxious I was the past two weeks envisioning what it would feel like to walk in there without her.

The oddest things simply crushed me, crushed me - her calender by her TV chair with a note on what date Martyn and I were scheduled to get there in May...her nightie hanging - you can't prepare for it, don't try,.

Get there as soon as you can because it is a huge relief and release afterwards.